TRUDDIE'S DIMENSION

I remember the first time we gazed at each other, Your deep brown eyes burning right into my soul, That smile you gave me, Made me look the other way, I knew I was a gonner, You had me at that. Somehow I just knew you right for me, It felt true, It felt real, Everytime we talked I fell deeper, I was in love, We fell in love. I remember every moment of that love, The embers and sparks of it all, The shivers down my spine, Every time you touched me. I remember chasing each others hearts, When we kissed each other breathless, When we set our own world on fire, And the perfect harmony that was. Then things happened, Complications heightened, I did not want to believe it. To me,  A rose coloured glass existed between us, The stain just grew darker, Until the glass became opaque, I could not see through you, You changed. It became different. I had to go. That was memories ago, Those memories are still etched in my mind, Flooding my thoughts from time to time. I remember the flames, The

I turned a year older just the other day and truth be told this season has had so many lows and highs. For me especially, there were too many letdowns. Hopes held on high just to crush me. Times where I gave those I'm-doing-great -I-can't- complain kind of replies but in truth I wanted  scream my head out because nothing was going right. Smiling and making jokes about how everything seems contorted but deep inside I was mad and confused about what a mess everything felt like. These years are totally unnerving.  Be that as it may, I just decided to sit back,  look at how life is and I realized God is in total control you know.The director behind the scenes. Even though I got mad at him so many times, I somehow knew that it was pointless because that's just it. Pointless.  He has a reason for everything. He always has.  With all the disappointments there have been real truths revealed though:Those spectacular academic degrees do not mean  the work you do will be fulfilling