21st Century Twenties

The freaking hellish twenties of century 21. Pheewwh!! I know I'm not the only one feeling this especially about the mid 20's. It is such a mental time. It is a time when you have to remind yourself each day that everything will be okay because the world is not what you thought. It is a time when you learn that peace of mind is actually something people struggle to find.

It is a time when you cannot seem to understand life or God. When you will roll through all emotions at once. You will be sad then happy, high then low. It is a time when you learn that "I- don't -know- what -I- feel" is also an emotion by itself. When relationships will end without drama but you still hurt as hell, probably even more than if it had ended with drama. 

It is a time when you will unlearn the things you learnt. When people will move to upper niches in their lives and you will feel left behind. People will be getting married and having children and you will feel like there must be something wrong with you. You will get jobs and lose them. You will learn people forget. You will lose friends and make new ones. You will feel alone. You will cry, throw things around and then laugh after all the damage. 

You will start questioning yourself about your dreams. It is a time you will want real, not superficial. When you only want sex with someone you actually like. When you can't stand mechanical or lackluster sex. It is a time you also want relationships but you are confused about what you really want altogether. 

It is a time where you learn life is short and people close to you will die. It is an overwhelming time and you will know that nothing is really new under the sun. That life is what it is. Life moves on. Most of all; you will learn you always have the power choose your fate and that you can survive whatever the world throws at you. My prayer is that you just keep on keeping on. You will get through this.

Amen!