TRUDDIE'S DIMENSION

I was travelling from Premier to Kericho town on one gloomy day in January. For such short journeys along the Kericho-Bomet highway, I prefer matatus from Kisii to those from Bomet. With Kisii's, two things will happen; either my temper will get tested or my short journey will be quiet. It is mostly the latter than the former but I'd rather have that than boarding a car from Bomet where a passenger wants to make small talk about clans. The touts also like 'selling people' and charging extra. I like it when my journeys are quiet. Just me overlooking the lush tea plantations. Anyway, I was in this Kisii matatu and usually in Kisii matatus the driver and the conductor are always chatting. This time however, the conductor was quiet and he kept on counting the cash while he was talking with a lady seated behind the driver. This lady had a really cute child with big eyes. They were talking in Kisii of course so I didn't understand what they were talking about...

You told me I was beautiful, That my smile lit you up, That my eyes were always bright, That you have always wanted me, That I was everything you needed. I said No, Not because I did not like you. But because I knew; And I still know, The thin line between the truth and a lie. And the truth was, I saw the way you looked at her; And I knew you would never love me, The way you loved her.

The freaking hellish twenties of century 21. Pheewwh!! I know I'm not the only one feeling this especially about the mid 20's. It is such a mental time. It is a time when you have to remind yourself each day that everything will be okay because the world is not what you thought. It is a time when you learn that peace of mind is actually something people struggle to find. It is a time when you cannot seem to understand life or God. When you will roll through all emotions at once. You will be sad then happy, high then low. It is a time when you learn that "I- don't -know- what -I- feel" is also an emotion by itself. When relationships will end without drama but you still hurt as hell, probably even more than if it had ended with drama.  It is a time when you will unlearn the things you learnt. When people will move to upper niches in their lives and you will feel left behind. People will be getting married and having children and you will feel lik...

Dare to do right, Dare to be kind, Dare to trust, Dare to hope, Dare to reach out, Dare to dream, Dare to love, Dare to laugh out loud; The universe is yours to have. Dare to have faith, Dare to be great, Dare to be tough, Dare to start, Dare not to give up, Dare to shine, Dare to be courageous, Dare to be true, And most of all; Dare to live.

Every waking day, we struggle with good and evil. It is a never-ending battle. It is as if the angels and demons within us are in it to win a race with the prize being our souls. It is no rocket-science it is always easier for us to think of what will make us comfortable or what is more rewarding. While it is not bad to think about your comfort,sometimes honestly speaking we act from a place of selfishness. We decide to be so self-involved. This is because to be good sometimes it means sacrificing your comfort for someone else's comfort. It means you have to let go of something, be it money, a sit in the matatu, your time, your energy et cetera, et cetera. In this world where vices are praised and bad takes the day I still believe that most people are good and that change is possible. Goodness is not necessarily shown by doing big things. It is the small things that matter; Be forgiving to those who wrong you. Revenge is an unrewarding venture. Let those people be. Karma al...

I remember the first time we gazed at each other, Your deep brown eyes burning right into my soul, That smile you gave me, Made me look the other way, I knew I was a gonner, You had me at that. Somehow I just knew you right for me, It felt true, It felt real, Everytime we talked I fell deeper, I was in love, We fell in love. I remember every moment of that love, The embers and sparks of it all, The shivers down my spine, Every time you touched me. I remember chasing each others hearts, When we kissed each other breathless, When we set our own world on fire, And the perfect harmony that was. Then things happened, Complications heightened, I did not want to believe it. To me,  A rose coloured glass existed between us, The stain just grew darker, Until the glass became opaque, I could not see through you, You changed. It became different. I had to go. That was memories ago, Those memories are still etched in my mind, Flooding my thoughts from time to time. I remember the flames, ...

I turned a year older just the other day and truth be told this season has had so many lows and highs. For me especially, there were too many letdowns. Hopes held on high just to crush me. Times where I gave those I'm-doing-great -I-can't- complain kind of replies but in truth I wanted  scream my head out because nothing was going right. Smiling and making jokes about how everything seems contorted but deep inside I was mad and confused about what a mess everything felt like. These years are totally unnerving.  Be that as it may, I just decided to sit back,  look at how life is and I realized God is in total control you know.The director behind the scenes. Even though I got mad at him so many times, I somehow knew that it was pointless because that's just it. Pointless.  He has a reason for everything. He always has.  With all the disappointments there have been real truths revealed though:Those spectacular academic degrees do not mean  the work you do w...