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I am madly in love with you. I love you madly. It is insane how much I love you.  

Why do people put insane or mad with love together? It has never sat well with me. Not when I had no idea of what feelings were and definitely not now that I know how what  feelings are and how confusing they can be.

I see how people melt at those words. I see how their eyes glow. I see how they are at loss for words. How speechless they get. How they soon forget their world and choose to revolve their lives around the sayer of those words. I see  them forget themselves. It is seems to me they are enchanted. Smiling but for fading roses. Eating but never  getting full. They dance to the music of dark knights and angels with many faces.  

No. I don’t like it when madly and in love are together. It feels sinister. My heart will beat fast I don’t deny. But not because I feel my insides melting, releasing butterflies in my stomach. Not because it will cause words to get stuck in my throat. It will beat fast because of the icy chill I will feel down my spine. It will beat fast because of fear. The fear of how you will be fixated on me. How you will be all over my space.  

No. I don’t like it one bit. Here is why. When it comes to it, you will sharpen your words and slice my spirit with them. When it comes to it, you will hold my neck against the wall. When it comes to it, my thoughts and words to you will be like sand, never holding water. When it comes to it, you will hand me dead flowers and laugh while at it. When it comes to it, you will stab me with that serrated dagger. When it comes to it, you will twist me with your twisted idea of madly in love.

Yes. I don’t want madly in love. I want softly in love. I want calmly in love. The kind which gives that same feeling I have when I am eating Nuvita Crunchy Lemon biscuits or Manji Digestive biscuits. I want healthy in love. I want peacefully in love. I want love as is and love for the good it carries. 

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  1. Hadibfo. M14 November 2021 at 12:23

    Mmh there's something about Manji biscuits😋😋
    An amazing point of view.

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